Image Transformations

From time to time, and by popular request, I will post “before” and “after” images. The mystery of transformation is as enticing as the final image itself, therefore I hesitate to spoil it!

However, you are my friends, and will not think less of me for revealing a sliver of my secret. So, here is a rather straightforward transformation. My grandson was playing “hide and seek” with a blanket, and I shot this photo:

IMG_1195 It’s cute only for we who love my grandson, but in itself it is dull, so I played with it. Here is the first transformation, upon which I settled after trying out several dozen images:

IMG_1195_edited-2 This is nice; I like it, so I played more, and after another several dozen images, all of which would have been nice, I settled on this:

IMG_1195_edited-3 Now, I am addicted to circle-making, so I had to make a circle out of this, and after I had done so, played with the circle to get this:

IMG_1195_edited-4 I was pleased with this, and decided to go one step further, and I ended up with an image that seemed to have potential, so I saved the image, and then adjusted it for light, shadow, hue, levels, saturation, etc. I burned and dodged various points, and ended up with this:

IMG_1195_edited-5 I like this image; I think I’ve tired of playing with it.

I love using dull, ordinary snapshots to transform into stunning, colorful, abstract images.  Of course, photo-editing software is a must, but I have learned only a part of what can be done. I have lots more to learn about digital image-making, but it’s fun, and cheap, and I can do it anywhere and anytime, and it serves as an avenue to express my artistic nature.

Some of you have expressed interest in trying your hand at digital image-making. The software is easy to learn, and not expensive (if you buy Photoshop Elements). You’ll need the plug-in called Plugin Gallaxy, and you’ll need a few ordinary snapshots. That’s it! Have at it! And post your images!

Amazing Circles and Other Oddities

Amazing Circles and Other Oddities

Several of my readers, most recently ~W~ and Safiyyah, have asked me how I make my circles and other creative images.  Honestly, I do not know. I can tell you how to start, but you must allow the image to take shape of its own accord. You must lose technique in the art. When I finally post an image, I cannot remember the sequence of steps that produced it.

However, with practice, I’m getting better at controlling the technique, choosing filters, effects, and colors to produce remarkable images. Here is how anyone can start:

A good photo editing program is essential. I use Photoshop Elements 6 and Microsoft Digital Imaging Suite.

A base photo is not so important. Any photo will do. A photo with good color and  contrast will be easier to transform, but the most interesting images result from poor photos that I would otherwise delete.

The easy way to get started is by making an Amazing Circle using dumpr’s automated technique:

http://www.dumpr.net/. You don’t need any software to use this technique; just plug in your photo.

When you tire of that, use the manual technique found on Flickr’s Amazing Circles group:

http://www.flickr.com/groups/amazingcircles/

The resulting circles are delightful, but you’ll soon tire of them, so then you must plug them into your photo editing software, and subject them to random filters and transformations, until you land on one you’d like to keep. The key here is to continue subjecting the resulting image to repeated filters and transformations, until you have an image that is far removed from its origin.

Then, you must adjust properties such as shadows, lighting, levels, brightness and color, on the Enhance menu of PSE. Then, think up a title and post the image to your Flickr account. That’s all there is to it!

Would you believe, that this:

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became this:IMG_1221_edited-6

became this:IMG_1221_edited-8 ?

My Playlist

Susie of Arabia http://susiesbigadventure.blogspot.com/ shows a playlist on her blog with many of my favorite songs of the early seventies. Sometimes I get stuck there listening and reminiscing my youth!  Last night I added my own playlist to my blog. I stayed up half the night listening to music and trying to figure out how to get the list on my blog. WordPress seems not as “friendly” to multi-media as Blogger, but that’s OK. I’ll figure it out.

So far, you can see the advertisement, “Create Your /Free Playlist,” two of them, showing my two attempts to get the code to work. Next to it, there’s a partial window with the letters PC showing. That’s my playlist. You can click on it, and it might work!

Anyway, I added some songs I listen to these days, since Susie now has the handle on the Oldies!  I’m going to have a lot of fun adding to the list.

My favorite of favorites in the entire world is Ancora, Ancora, Ancora by Mina. I”ve been listenting to that song since 1991, and I never get tired of it. If you listen to just one of my songs, please try that one. If you listen to two, try Volami nel Cuore.

Conversation with Robert

Conversation with Robert

My daughter Mai did not consider Robert a suitor– he was an acquaintance– so we were surprised when he made the effort to come for a visit while on leave from active duty in Iraq. Perhaps he was fascinated with her Arab-American heritage, and her firm opposition to the war. The war had started six months previously, and the sentiment of the American people hadn’t yet turned against it. 

I took the young people to brunch at a neighborhood pancake house, and we talked about the war. Robert told us he had “many stories to tell.” Mai and I sat in silent expectation, sensing his conflict in opening up to us.

“God, I hate the enemy,” he began, and fell silent.

“Who is the enemy?” I finally asked.

“Iraqis!” Robert answered, as if he were telling me something I should have known.

We sat at a table surrounded by other tables with children and overweight adults, retired couples and laborers. Loud voices praised ball games and the unseasonably good weather. Soft voices discussed the church agenda, and the declining health of the grandparents. The aromas of pancakes, omelets and coffee settled over the table, and the awkward moment dissipated when I offered Robert the milk and sugar.

“But isn’t it possible that the Iraqi soldier is just like you?” I asked. “He has parents, siblings, or a spouse and children? He is loved, just like you?”

“There’s no room for that kind of thinking in combat.”

“I know, ” I said.

“Tell us one of your stories!” Mai broke in. The corners of his mouth drooped a little, and his eyes widened. He sight seemed to reverse, looking into the mind that was now infected with war visions like viruses inserted into  his soul.

“I’ll never forget looking down the barrel of my weapon and seeing an eye looking back at me. Everything around me was dark; it was night, and time stood still. It was just me and him. You’d be amazed at what goes through your mind.”

“What goes through your mind?” Mai and I asked together.

“Lots of stuff.”

“Like what?”

“A few seconds seem like an hour.”

“What did you do?”

“I squeezed the trigger, and on that particular weapon the mechanism moves slow and smooth, to keep the barrel steady and not miss the target.”

“And what was your reaction when you realized you were still alive?”

“Run.” That’s all he said. We waited, but he seemed to be finished with that story.

“Did you ever think about writing down some of your experiences?” I asked, when I saw the tears about to spill from his eyes, but he wasn’t finished talking about combat.

“I’ve shot at lots of….things,” he said, hesitating at the word, avoiding it as he had avoided the word “gun”. He had to do what he had to do, whether he wanted to or not, and he adjusted his attitude to accept what he had to do. Would I would have done the same? How can you kill someone’s son, brother, husband, father? How can you determine whether your target is thinking the same way, or whether you are but a “thing” to him as he squeezes the trigger on his own weapon? The instinct to self-preservation crashes against the generic moral imperative that even an enemy learns in childhood: Love your neighbor as yourself.

A week after our pancake brunch, Robert returned to Iraq. Eight months after that, I asked my daughter, “Have you heard from Robert lately ? Is he still in Iraq?”

“Oh, no, Mom. He wrote me a few weeks ago from St. Louis. He didn’t re-enlist. He’s joining the priesthood! Can you imagine that!”

I could imagine that.

Several more years passed, and my daughter married an Iraqi whose family left Iraq as the soldiers entered it. Now we listen to his stories.

 

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My Whiff of of War

My Whiff of War

On the morning of Jan. 16, 1991, my phone rang. The light of dawn had not yet entered my bedroom window. I answered on the second ring,  knowing what I’d hear.

“The war has started! They’ve struck Baghdad!”

I popped up from my bed and grabbed the tape. I had not tapped my windows. The hospital had advised all residents to do so, but I had been lazy, or perhaps in denial that Riyadh would lie in the line of fire.  Now the war had started, and if a bomb landed nearby, the windows would shatter, sending wedges of glass all over the apartment, and on me.

My hands shook as my heart rate climbed. I scolded myself: “I should have gotten out of here two weeks ago. Now it’s too late, the airports are closed. How could I have imagined that staying here would be safe, even exciting, with scud missiles flying over Riyadh? What is the matter with me? My family in the United States needs me.  This hospital doesn’t need me, even if we receive masses of injured people in the ER. Now it’s too late. Half of Riyadh has left the country. I should have done the same. Now I am stuck, at the bottom of an oil well that has caught fire above my head.

As I climbed on a chair to reach the top of the window, I heard– or imagined I heard– the sudden, low rumble of a missile as it exploded into a building some place in Riyadh. I thought about my friend Asma, who lived in the city. I thought about my other friends in our social circle of Western women living in the Riyadh. I remembered our happy gatherings, how we dressed up, wore our gold and laughed, and told our stories, and how we studied Islam and Arabic together at Dar Adthikr, and how we joked about Riyadh being so quiet, so slow, so dull.

The tape slipped from my hands, and I stumbled off the chair to pick it up, nearly tipping the entire chair and landing on my backside. What defense would be provided by taping my windows?

Why am I doing this? If a bomb lands close enough to shatter the windows, a few strips of tape will not restrain the mess. I’d be better off to hide in the safest part of the apartment— the bathroom.

Located furthest inside, surrounded by walls of other rooms, and having no windows, the bathroom could protect me. I ran into it and closed the door, grabbing the radio along the way.

I took wudu and started to pray two rakas. Then I remembered we are not supposed to pray in bathrooms, so I sat on the floor, leaned against the bathtub and made dua. I stayed there till after Fajr, hunting for English language radio stations as they faded in and out of reception, imagining that someone would find my body under the collapsed bathroom walls, and wonder whether I’d suffered much.  My family would cry in anger and grief,  knowing that my fate would have been unnecessary and perfectly avoidable. I had arranged for an exit visa three weeks ago, and could have left the country two times for every day since.

When I opened the bathroom door to the full light of day, I decided I had overreacted.

Missiles exploded in Riyadh every other night. On quiet nights, we knew that missiles were exploding in Israel. All non-critical patients had been discharged from the hospital, and we stood at work with little to do except gossip, exchange rumors, and scare each other with doomsday predictions. My Syrian and Palestinian colleagues had survived other wars already, and did not feel the need to leave Riyadh. I suppose they had become used to such an atmosphere, but I had never seen it. Two weeks into the war, I lost my composure, yelled at my boss in public,  for a minor matter, went home and packed a suitcase.

The US Army offered seats on military aircraft for Americans who wished to leave after the civilian airport had closed.  “I can’t tell you where you’ll be landing,” said the person who took my phone call. “The destination is secret until just before departure.”

“I don’t care where you dump me, just get me out of here.” I replied.

Shortly before departure, I learned that we would be deposited in Madrid. There, we’d get a bed for a night, and then we’d be on our own.

I was surprised to see that the interior of the plane held just a  row of seats lining each side, and that I’d have to sit perpendicular to the direction of travel, my back against a straight, metal seat, and no where to look but across the width of the plane to my compatriots. There were no windows!  For sure, I would vomit.  I managed to down a tablet of Dramamine without water, but couldn’t get warm. As the plane gained altitude, I became colder and colder. I tried counting the reverberations of the engines, telling myself that each revolution took me closer to landing safely. All I had to do was sit there. The noise, darkness, cold and turbulence of that flight seemed to last all night, and the Dramamine did not do its job,

This is a military plane, and you are on an evacuation flight. What did you expect– first class? 

In Madrid, my fellow evacuees ignored me and each other. We had entered the mind-set of self-preservation; no one mattered except ourselves, and we all headed in different directions. I remembered enough Spanish to walk to the nearest travel agency and book an immediate flight to Paris, and then on to New York.

Those first two weeks of Desert Storm gave me a whiff of white hot fear, and a profound regret for the rest of my life that might not be lived. All I wanted was to tell my family I loved them, and then to know what would become of me. Whoever said, “The first casualty of war is truth,” knew something. I had no way of knowing what was true of untrue regarding this war. The uncertainty, coupled with the constant rumors that had flashed unrestrained throughout the hospital those first weeks of war intensified my sense of doom, kept my limbs light with adrenalin, my heart beating so strongly I nearly heard it from outside my body,  wide-eyes of constant surveillance, and the raw sensitivity to movements happening behind me. I had activated the survival instinct, and I knew it would surpass civility. I’d do anything to preserve and protect myself. For awhile, I wondered whether people living in Palestine and other war zones felt the same way, or whether they had gotten used to war, as my colleagues seemed to have incorporated it into their lives.

I stayed two weeks in the refuge of my parents’ home in the States. Then, I flew to Cairo to visit a friend and wait out the war. One night, after a lovely meal in a cute restaurant, we walked along a busy street and saw people waving and shouting with joy from the windows of their cars, and we knew that the war had ended. A week later, after the Riyadh airport opened, I returned to resume the routine I had established before the war. Patients streamed back into the hospital, and it all might have been a bad dream. The only markers I saw in the city were a couple of blown out buildings, now still and deserted. Amateur photographers framed their photos of missiles exploding over Riyadh. Everyone wanted a photo to post on their walls.

We started enjoying ourselves again, resuming work and collecting paychecks, going out for dinner, shopping for Oriental rugs, gold, and souvenirs to take back to the States. The war had ended, and we had survived.  A giddy sense of privilege infused the Western expatriates, becaue most of us knew that, “There, but for the grace of God, go I.”

I never saw blood, never lost a friend, let alone a family member. My eardrums were never shattered by the boom of a missile tearing up my home, flinging bodies and parts of bodies, of my family, friends, and neighbors here and there. For all my terror and anxiety, I never saw war. I merely brushed along its sidelines, and moved away when I decided I’d had enough.

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Gaza Commentary

Gaza Commentary

The bloggers I read have either focused on Gaza, avoided the subject, or remained silent altogether. What can anyone say that hasn’t already been said? What can anyone do that shouldn’t have already been done by people in stronger positions to do it? 

I don’t know. I cannot address the issue with authority or experience. A repetition of condemnation seems redundant, and an appeal to Allah seems inadequate. Our words of condemnation may soothe us for a time, but they don’t prevent a single innocent life from being sacrificed for naught, nor do we control Allah, and our prayers are not always answered simply because we say them with enthusiasm and in the knowledge that the situation in Gaza is a black hole of evil, a cesspool of suffering, a renewal of man’s inhumanity to man. 

This blog is a place for me to record my experiences in Riyadh. Other subjects intersperse themselves, and I trust they add a spark. This subject of Gaza, however, cries for a comment, even an insipid one, even one that contributes nothing.

Could I offer anything worth reading, anything that doesn’t merely spit in the wind?

I’m out of my league here– intellectually, religiously, politically, or any other kind of way. The TV reports and blog posts with gory pictures could as easily be fictional, for all the effect they’ve had upon my life. However, something on the subject churns between my brain and my stomach. Something needs to be expressed. I don’t know what, and I don’t know why, but it’s in there.

I’d better get on with it.

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Happy New Year

Happy New Year!

I was going to write a pessimistic post about the pain of 2008- I lost my father. Our vacation home suffered a tornado, I lost money in the stock market, and now we’ve already seen a record snowfall, with winter not yet half over! That’s just my little world. What about the rest of the planet? What about Gaza, what about Iraq?

Then I read some of your Happy New Year posts. I smiled, and remembered the blessings of 2008– my family members retained good health and comfortable homes. No one has lost a job, an arm, a leg, or worse.  I started this blog, met wonderful blogging buddies, and I learned digital photography. My third grandchild was born healthy and beautiful, just last week.

Today begins the new year. We have hopes, plans, and dreams.  In our mind’s eye, we see ourselves next New Year’s Eve still alive, still healthy, still enjoying the good of life, and celebrating  unforeseen blessings.

No one imagines that cancer and death will strike close to home, let alone in the house. No one thinks loss and misfortune will enter boldly and unwelcome through the front door. We suppress the obvious, that life is not only unpredictable and uncontrollable, but that free will is more a fantasy than a state of being.

In spite of the obvious, we still say, “Happy New Year!” The human spirit is hard-wired for hope. The human heart loves before it hates, and heals itself from mortal injury against our most dire expectations. In the knowledge that tragedy and death will take us in the end, we smile, we give thanks, and we set ourselves to the tasks of the day.

For this, I say, Happy New Year!

 

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